Chapter 32
I remembered holding him in the hospital parking lot, promising to keep him safe. I realized now that keeping him safe had been my biggest mistake. I had shielded him from consequences his whole life. I had bailed him out of bad grades, bad debts, and bad decisions. I had created this monster by refusing to let him fail.
I pulled my leg away. Stand up, I commanded. He stood up, sniffling, wiping his nose on his sleeve. I am not going to save you this time, Austin, I said. I am done. The bank is going to know. The police are going to know. And the world is going to know. You are going to lose the house. You are going to lose the cars.
You are going to lose Monica because sharks do not stick around when the blood is in the water. But you will gain something. I pointed to the door. You will gain the truth. For the first time in your life, you are going to face the reality of who you are. Austin looked at me with hatred now. The begging was gone, replaced by the ugly spite of a spoiled child denied a toy.
‘You are enjoying this,’ he spat. ‘You always wanted me to fail. You never thought I was good enough. You with your medals and your war stories, you judge everyone. You think you are God.’ ‘No,’ I said calmly. I am just a logistics officer and I am clearing out the dead weight. The knock came at the door. Time is up.
The guard called from the hallway. Austin stared at me for one last second. His eyes were full of venom. I hope you rot. He whispered. He turned and walked out. He did not say goodbye to his children. He did not look back. The door clicked shut. The silence returned. I let out a breath I didn’t know I was holding.
My hands were shaking, not from fear, but from the sheer effort of cutting the cord. It is a terrible thing to amputate a part of yourself, but sometimes it is the only way to save the rest of the body. I turned back to the kids. Leo had put his burger down. He was crying silently, big tears rolling down his cheeks.
Grandpa, he choked out. Is dad going to jail? I walked over and sat down between them. I put one arm around Leo and one arm around Mia. I pulled them close into a tight huddle. Yes, Leo, I said. I will not lie to you. He is going to jail. Leo buried his face in my chest. Mia leaned her head on my shoulder. Is it my fault? Leo asked.