Chapter 42
But this house, this family, the three of us lying on this floor, we were going to be okay. We were going to keep the house. We were going to plant a garden. We were going to bake cookies that didn’t cost money. I closed my eyes. The ship rocked gently, carrying us toward the dawn. I was ready.
I was the firewall, and nothing was ever going to burn these children again. The return journey to Miami was a blur of gray water and heavy silence. The icon of the seas, which had seemed like a floating paradise two days ago, now felt like a massive cage. When the thrusters finally fired to push the behemoth into its birth at the Port of Miami, the vibration rattled the teeth in my skull.
It was the sound of reality crashing back into our lives. I stood on the lower gangway deck holding Mia and Leo’s hands. We were not disembarking with the other passengers. We were not part of the happy sunburned herd dragging their duty-free liquor and souvenirs toward customs. We were being escorted by the staff captain and two security officers through a service exit.
Ahead of us, flanked by four guards, walked Austin and Monica. They looked like ghosts of the people they used to be. Austin’s floral shirt was wrinkled and stained with sweat. He walked with his head down, staring at his expensive loafers as if they were the only things keeping him tethered to the earth. Monica, however, was still trying to maintain an illusion.
She had reapplied her makeup. She had brushed her hair. She walked with her chin up, looking straight ahead, refusing to acknowledge the guards holding her arms. She was marching toward her doom with the arrogance of someone who still believed she could speak to a manager and have the charges removed. We stepped off the metal ramp and onto the concrete of the pier.
The heat of Florida hit us instantly. It was humid, sticky, and smelled of diesel fuel and ocean salt. But unlike the heat in Nassau, which felt like a vacation, this heat felt like an interrogation room. Waiting for us at the bottom of the ramp were not taxi drivers or tour guides. There were three black SUVs with government plates.
Standing beside them were four officers in tactical vests with FBI printed in bold yellow letters on their backs and two uniformed Miami Dade police officers. And standing right in front of them, looking like a statue carved from ice and granite, was Rachel Stein, my lawyer. She held a thick Manila folder in her hands.