Chapter 33
Because I told the truth. No. I kissed the top of his head. It is never your fault for telling the truth. The truth is the only thing that is going to save us. Your dad is going to jail because of what he did not because of what you said. We sat there for a long time. The three of us in that small cabin floating in the middle of the ocean.
Outside the night was black and endless, but inside we had food. We had safety and we had the clean, painful clarity of the end. The hunt was over. Now we just had to survive the aftermath. The silence in the cabin after Austin left was heavier than the steel hull of the ship. It was the kind of silence that rings in your ears.
I locked the door and engaged the deadbolt. Then I dragged the heavy armchair over and wedged it under the handle. It was not standard maritime procedure, but I was done taking chances. I was done trusting locks that other people had keys to. Mia had not moved from her spot on the floor.
She was picking at the sesame seeds on the remaining half of her burger. Her eyes were red and swollen. She looked like a soldier who had survived the battle but lost the war. Grandpa,’ she whispered. ‘Why does daddy hate me?’ I knelt down in front of her. My knees cracked a sound that seemed too loud in the small room.
‘He does not hate you, Mia,’ I said, choosing my words with the precision of a bomb disposal technician. ‘He hates himself, and people who hate themselves are dangerous because they try to break everyone around them so they do not have to feel small alone. You are just the mirror he is afraid to look into. She did not understand.
How could she? She was eight. But she leaned into me and I held her. 10 minutes later, there was another sound at the door. It was not a knock. It was a scratch. A timid, rhythmic scratching, like a stray dog asking for shelter. I stood up. I moved the chair. I checked the peepphole. It was Leo. My biological grandson was standing in the hallway.
He was wearing his pajamas, silk ones with a designer logo on the pocket. He was holding a pillow under one arm and his shoes in the other hand. He looked terrified. He kept looking back down the corridor chore toward the elevators as if he expected a monster to burst out and devour him. I opened the door.