Chapter 5
I stood.
He did too.
For half a second I thought he might stop me.
He didn’t.
I picked up my purse.
The bakery box remained unopened on the sideboard.
“What about your things?” he asked.
“I’ll have someone collect them.”
“Natalie.”
I looked back.
Something uncertain passed over his face.
Maybe guilt.
Maybe discomfort.
Maybe the faint realization that ending a marriage should have made more noise.
But he only said, “I’m sorry.”
I smiled.
It felt terrible.
“So am I.”
I walked out carrying three ultrasound pictures he never knew existed.
At the bottom of the front steps, I blocked his number.
At the end of the driveway, I climbed into my car and shut the door.
For thirty seconds I simply sat there.
Then I pulled the ultrasound envelope from my purse.
I placed the three pictures across the steering wheel.
Three tiny lives.
Three reasons not to fall apart forever.
I pressed both hands over my still-flat stomach.
“Well, babies,” I whispered.
My voice broke.
“Looks like it’s just the four of us.”
That afternoon, I drove away from New York.
I thought I was leaving one marriage behind.
I had no idea I was beginning a secret that would last five years.
The night my husband's childhood sweetheart grabbed my waist so hard that I nearly fell in front of Chicago's wealthiest families, I expected him to defend me. Chapter 1: PART 1: THREE HEARTBEATS AND A BLACK FOLDER
PART 2: THE LIFE HE NEVER SAW
The ten million dollars stayed untouched for almost four months.
I could not look at the account without hearing Ryan say the word generous.
So I lived at first on the money I already had.
People later assumed I must have started over in some dramatic way.
I didn’t.
I drove to my older sister Rebecca’s house outside Chicago because it was the only place I could think of where nobody would ask me to make decisions for twenty-four hours.
When she opened the door and saw me standing there with two suitcases and swollen eyes, she pulled me inside without asking a question.
I lasted eleven minutes before telling her.
She listened silently until I reached the part about the divorce.
Then she said, “I’m going to kill him.”
“No, you’re not.”
“I’m considering it.”
Then I handed her the ultrasound photographs.
Rebecca looked down.
Her mouth opened.